Hijikata said to his pupils "expression without expression" This reminded me "no acting, please" from my acting training. Through my acting training at Actors Studio Drama school. I was trained to be ok with just being there. I remember my teachers insisted to tell us to not presenting nor explaining through acting. So when I encountered Hijikata Butoh, and read his words and a book written by his students, and watch some documentaries- I found myself "home" to the philosophy of "expression without expression."

In the acting training, I had months of just sense memory practice. It developed not only my five senses deeper but also my focus level. In Hijikata's later work- notational butoh (Butoh Fu/Butoh Score), there are many body sensational conditions which we need to create first to begin. It has to be real. We really have to do it. Not kind of, not showing, not presenting, and of course not expressing. We actually feel itchiness, skin dryness, smoothness, lightness... It is a sensation; not presentation. For me, this is one of a principle thought,  and I love this very much. 
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Since we are human beings, we make mistakes. We cause others to suffer. We hurt our loved ones, and we feel regret. But without making mistakes, there is no way to learn. If you can learn from. your mistakes, then you have already transformed garbage into flowers. Very often our mistakes come from our unskillfulness, and not because we want to harm one another. I think of our behavior in terms of being more or less skillful rather than in terms of good and bad. if you are skillful, you can avoid making yourself suffer and the other person suffer. If there's something you want to tell the other person, then you have to say it, but do so skillfully, in a way that leads to less rather than more suffering. 

To Love is, first of All, to accept ourselves as we actually are. The first practice of love is to know oneself. The Pali word, mettameans "loving kindness" When we practice mettameditation, we see the conditions that have caused us to be the way we are; this makes it easy for us to accept ourselves, including our suffering and our happiness. When we practice mettameditation, we touch our deepest aspirations. But the willingness and aspiration to love isnot yet love. we have to look deeply, with all our being, in order to understand the object of our meditation. The practice of love is not autosuggestion. We have to look deeply, at our body, feelings, perceptions, mental formations, and consciousness. We can observe how much peace, happiness, and lightness, we already have. we can notice whether we are anxious about accidents or misfortunes, and how much anger, irritation, fear, anxiety or worry are still in us, our self-understanding will deepen. We will see how our fears and lack of peace contribute to our unhappiness, and we will see the value of loving ourselves, and cultivating a heart of compassion. Love will enter our thoughts, words, and actions.


- Thich Nhat Hanh

​We all have a gift.

But most of the time
we want to keep it a secret.

I think it is ok not to tell
what gifts you have

- in a way--
keep it a secret.

But it is nice
to share a gift with others.

Your beauty,
your strength,
your compassion,
your craft,
and more.

Just breathe a moment,
and share a part of yourself with others.

The moment you shared is a gift. 

​"Butoh is a dance of INOCHI  (being, soul, life) by Kazuo Ono.  

"My dance is expansion of human concept- letting a human body metamorphosis into anything including an animal, a plant, even an object which does not have a life, and the fundamental ideology of my butoh is finding the possibility." -Tatsumi Hijikata

"My dance is expansion of human concept- letting a human body metamorphosis into anything including an animal, a plant, even an object which does not have a life, and the fundamental ideology of my butoh is finding the possibility." -Tatsumi Hijikata

When we practice the art of mindful living, we water the positive elements in ourselves and each other. We see that the other person, like us has both flowers and garbage inside, and we accept this. Our practice is to water the flower in our loved one, and not bring them more garbage. When we try to grow flowers, if they don't grow well, we don't blame them or argue with them. Our partner is a flower. If we take care of her poorly, she will wither. To help a flower grow well, we must understand her nature. How much water and sunshine does she need? 

Body and mind are not two separate entities. What happens in the body will have an effect on the mind and vice versa. Mind relies on the body to manifest,  and body relies on mind in order to be alive, in order to be possible. 

When you love someone, you have to respect her, not only her mind but also her body. You respect your own body, and you respect her body. Your body is you. Your body is your mind. The other person's mind and body are also connected." 

When do you feel a joy in your daily life? 

When we find a joy, and when we share the joy with others, the joy will grow. We can create the joy together. 

We sometimes have challenging times in our lives. But we can choose to breath with a job in the dark moments. Why not?  

Maybe the  joy can be the change.