"Are you enjoying performing (Butoh Medea)?"
I posed. it made me think.
"hummm, that is a tricky question..." I said.
"suffering"... I replied. "maybe I am enjoying suffering?" later in the class, I realized and said. "I love exploring. I wanna go unknown areas... curious to discover something new- something I don't know- and helps me to grow."
Those are my truth as an artist.
At the night I had two performances of Butoh Medea.
6:50pm, there were too many students outside, and couldn't enter the theatre, so we added another show at 9pm. I've never done two Butoh Medeaperformances back and back. I did it. I was interested in what would happen in me and Butoh Medea with exhaustion. It was pure curiosity, and I was interested in challenging my limitation.
After the show,,,, I heard from the producer that one of her students was saying "I am changed, I am changed! In a really good way! I am changed!" It was rewarding. I gave everything I have, and that inspired someone's life. That is a gift to me.
How to describe this.... like a baby is smiling back- and all exhaustion is gone. For me, the audience, the community - people in the room, space, and spirits. We were there together, and we went through something together. And I love those moments.
Why we do what we do?
I would say.... Love and passion!