I walk. alone. among many others.
walk forward. to the future.

I saw someone who looked like me and nothing like me. walking toward me.
When she was closer, I recognized that she was myself who did not get the illness at age of  19.

She saw me as well as I saw her.
She held hand of a little girl who looked like exactly of her. I saw them.They stopped walking and looked at me. but I kept walking. looking at forward.
​The past that I thought I should be is now behind. 

The wind moves me. the soil moves me.
the water moves me, and the heat moves me.
​All the elements in the universe allow us to breathe --

to live. 

the sun is setting to call out the day.
the stars and moon shine in the sky.
We lift our hearts up. 

The warm shining lights poring all over our bodies, 
Blossoming flowers out of our bodies, 
Delivering the flowers into the world 

The past may shadow us. But we live with them.
In this moment, I let go everything I have; I surrender.  
I wish to be a vessel of the Universe,
to be in service to take an action of the will. 

I vow to transform whatever the life has given me into a flower, and share it with others.

​many others who I encounter. ​

"Even if the river is shallow, cross it deeply." 

While I have been in Japan, I received this proverb. 

Even if the river is shallow, if we don't pay attention, we might get tripped, and so, we should be careful. 

"Sincerity" is the word
which came to me while I was reading this proverb.

Sometimes we rush things, take things lightly, and act casually without deep thoughts. Even when I want to finish things quickly, doing multi-tasks, and being busy, I should take small matters sincerely. 

I want to face things sincerely, breathe in a moment, and take action with full of my heart. 

This is my summer manifestation. ​

Ongoing quest of what love is...
Not what love should be 
nor should it look like, but 
what love is to me. 

Love is breathing, and not suffocating.
Love is caring and not hurting. 
Love is compassion, not comparison.
Love brings joy; Joy finds love.

Maybe it's not someone or something
that makes me happy,
but rather something or someone
that inspires me to open my heart to life.
Love is life; Life is love.
Love springs forth in a moment
when they make me smile with only a glance. 
Seeing is being seen,
it's an act of affection.
Pure joy springs forth within us;
love expands and spreads around us and beyond.

If we all practice the art of love,
and apply it to our daily life,
maybe someday there will be peace in the world. ​

Spring: vibrant and pure.
The spring has come.
The sun is brighter than before.
The day is longer than before.
Not yet, but it is there.
We feel the Spring is growing-
right around the corner.

Between sunny days
water- rain carries the transition of seasons.
dry and cold winter to moist and warm spring.
Trees and greens are ready
to share their own beauty.
The flower buds are expanding.
Each rain we have, we are closer to blooms.
The season of Sei-Mei: Sunny and Bright. 

We have been creating and developing Butoh Medea  since 2014. The show traveled many places, and this year is the 10th year of the show and finally we are finishing the developing period.
I just went to SUNY Potsdam to share this show with college students as part of an artist residency.
It was a wild ride. I felt that the final dress rehearsal was smooth; however, my designer/collaborator said I was all over the place during the final run.  I was having a nightmare in the actual show, but he said the actual performance was solid. After 10 years, and the 49th public performance (100 + run through), I am still discovering, and "surviving in a moment". It has never gotten easy. Every time, I challenge myself physically, energetically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. I am trying to ride the rough wave; the wave which the audience, the tech team and I are creating a show in the moment. I cannot rehearse that. It is chemistry in the moments in our lives. 
​
 Live performance is a ritual. Theatre is sacred.